Love

I love you Lord. I have faith, I believe. Thanks for never leaving us

but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, They will soar
on wings like Eagles, they will run and not grow weary-they will walk and not be faint
Isaiah 40:31

for me

I get this on facebook and wanted to put it here as a reminder



On this day of your life, Kat, we believe God wants you to know ... that all is well.

What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good?

trudging along

just looked up the word trudge-
-to walk or march steadily and usually laboriously-

That sounds like what I am doing..although I dont like the word labriously cuz when I looked it up it said, by hard or toilsome effort, and it is not by my effort that i am trudging along..It is because God is working..or I am finally letting him work..

so that means slowly but surely..I see the sun shining again..I feel hope..I feel love..I feel purpose..All really awesome things..

Thank you Lord and I will try not to trudge anymore..but to maybe.......run?

What I meditated on today

2 Corinthians 4-


7But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.
8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.
11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.
12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

New Year..New life

Things have been really hard and yes I have been dwelling in self pity. This morning though I made a decision to not look at my circumstances but to look to God. I prayed before everyone had woken up and it has helped me to start my day with a better attitude.

The last few weeks I didn't know how we would get by, my husband wasn't working, not collecting any money and what I made was gone to bills right away. we live paycheck to paycheck, no savings. We were struggling just to provide food. Some things happened to show me that God has been helping us, even when I was doubting. I won a gift card at work for a small amount of money but it put food on the table. A friend bought us some food also..
and today my husband has work..Thank you Lord.

I need to keep my faith..and stop doubting..He does always come through..not always in the way I want but in the ways we need.

Thank you Father..I praise you..and love you. Forgive me for my doubts..my bitterness..my anger. Please help us. Help me to be who You need me to be.
Amen

ashamed

I am ashamed of myself and my attitude the last few weeks. I complained, murmured, was angry..all because of our bills and not having money for Christmas. I am working but my husband has not for awhile. I took most of my anger out on him and blamed him for everything..even things from years and years ago..
It made me realize how much unforgivenss I hold..that I thought I had let go of..I know that it is hindering my walk...my relationship with God.

I read my sister in Christs blog and her faith is so awesome..I wish I had a speck of that.

Help me God..I am so scared at how far away I am falling